[	my emotion is	|	annoyed	]
[	what i listen to is	|	simple plan - perfect	]

sooo this is one of my random updates. i hate lj but i awalys feel like i have this obligation to wrtie in it.

im ready to leave. im ready to get of this place that i call home. ive realized so much shit since summer. ive changed so much and im proud of some of the changes that ive made. im starting to realize more and more each day that u cant count on everyone. they might say one thing to u ..and then with in like 24 of saying that something else will happen to prove that they didnt really mean it.  im sick of how fake ppl are. like serisouly ppl in this world need to get there own identity.  be ur own person. dont look at some one and be like "i wish i was like them.." u wont get anywhere in life if u act like someone else.  ive come to the conclusion that family actualy helps. for the longest time i would push them away.

im ready to get out of here. its time for me to find some thing new and exiciting. michigan just aint doing it for me anymore.

i need a differernt location with different people.

[	my emotion is	|	ur all LAME	]
[	what i listen to is	|	backstreet boys cd	]

ok well. friday night = crazy. end of story.

so schools going ok....my parents think i should be doing better but im trying my hardest so thats what they get...ive come to the conculsion that my parents are crazy. but whos parents arnt?

i cant wait for summer. lol..its sooooo far away YET soooo close.

im sick of everything thats going on

people just need to mind there own fucking business.

the talking..the staring..do u honestly feel like u need to spend ur time talking about me?

seriously. get a life and just stop. ur all lame.

k thanks.

kel

i hate not knowing whats going on. i hate knowing that i could possibly get hurt.

[	my emotion is	|	weird	]
[	what i listen to is	|	taking back sunday	]

mmmmm. so today..i had to work at 9....wow. thats was soooo hard to get up after going to bed at freaking 3 in the am. but whatever i did it and i made it thru the whole day. but ill add that i work with dumb and dumber. honestly now..our owner and managers want us to be "fast" and friendly when we're doing drive thru....but thats not possible working with them . im ready to just punch them and be like HELLO!. soo then after work i came home and started doing my hwk....it took me like a hour plus JUST to finish math. im a slow worker. but i finished and now im happy

so this whole grounding thing is just a laugh to me now. my mom is crazy. she never stays on what she says cuz she realizes after a while that she cant control me . "ur grounded for a month, nothing but school and work".....so ask me what i did this weekend...WENT OUT.!? what explain that one to me. im grounded yet i can still go out.....hmm. i got my liscense back tho. so thats a GOOD sign :-)

so lets see....this weekend my mom let me drive on friday so naturally me and morgan hit up hercules cuz we were hungry.....got our yummy salads..then drove around......then hit up DQ where we saw jared josh steve paul and so we just talked to them for a lil...then evan called and we hung out with evan ican michael....then some ppl showed up later.....we all left....then me and morgan came back to my house and evan michael and ivan came back over for a lil....i made chicken noodle soup with WILD rice for miss morgan. haha. .....so then saturday i worked....came home and showered and stuff....then morgan calls and shes like what are u doing...and im like CHEM. im so lame. so i went over to morgans..her friend tiffany was thurrr..its crazy...me and tiffany have talked to each other before but not knowing who each other were.....and i also found out that me and morgan are like long lost friends. its weirrd.

this weekend was good. akward at times...but i love being akward. it entertains me.

state next saturday! yay get to see the bruder! :-)

peace.

am i just supposed to sit and wait?...im so lost.....and every time i think bout it...i just get a lil  more confused.

[	my emotion is	|	stressed	]
[	what i listen to is	|	ashlee simpson- burning	]

no school today. yay.

so i thought i was grounded cuz of my one bad grade and the speeding ticket i got...but i thought wrong. my mom was like no where but school and work for a month. and then today when i asked to go out to dinner she was like as long as some else drives go ahead. i was like WHAT?!..oh they took my liscense away but im thinking im gonna get that back since i gotta get to work some how. my mom is sooooooo gay. i cant stand living with her sometimes.

im so confused. i dont know how to feel. i feel like i have nothing. i dont like this feeling. i want something so badly but i dont think its gonna happen the way i want it to. i dont wanna push things. i just want it to happen .... but sometimes i can be so impaitent. sdkansdkfjaslkdjfalksdjfklblahhhhhhhh

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my emotion is

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i just had to fuck up

]

go me! i fucked it up once again. i cant believe how fucking retarded i am.

im grounded. probably forever.

call me at my house PLEASE

248-489-5924

or IM me: basketball001239

[	my emotion is	|	optimistic	]
[	what i listen to is	|	ashlee simpson- i didnt steal ur bf	]

RAVE..what?! more like wanna be rave. but cool fog and glow sticks and lights.

so tonight me morgan and danielle went out...went to louis house .....eh that was lame. then we left and went to some kids house but ryan called me and was like come over......so i did..must say it was alllll north ppl..but still lotta fun. jon was thur. it was like OMG HEY?..kinda surprised...my leg kinda hurts....i missed a step going down stairs and landed on my leg. laura and liz and kelsey and angie and all of them were there. aww it was kinda akward for me and laura for a minute but once the rave music started it was allllll good...josh stole my keys and took the jeep for a joy ride. alllmost killed me. then we all just chilled in the lawn for like an hour....me and morgan were fighting..i threw  that bitch down ..haha ...tonight was an over all goooooood night. must say that hanging with morgan and danielle always turns into an interesting night.

im so confused. i really just want things to go slow and not move faster. i dont want help from anyone cuz i dont want things to get screwed up. i just want things to happen. i dont want to get pushed into something if its not going to happen. things take time to deveolope.

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my emotion is

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drained

]

im not sure how to express how i feel inside. i feel different ....like i dont have anyone that could understand how i feel. its not really a bad feeling..just weird. im kinda drifting away from some ppl and getting closer to others. changing is a good word. im not sure how much i like it tho.. i want to go back to the simple days when nothing was supposed to bother u.. i think thats my problem. i let things get to me ....but i try and blow them off but some how me trying doesnt do much...another good word is regret. some things i would say that i wish i could do them over but i dont really regret them. i just wish i wouldve done them a little differently..they were good learning lessons but i guess i thats what mistakes are for..learning lessons in life. eh

im done trying to please everyone. ur opion doesnt matter to me. u can say what u want. see how ill react.

wellll.

friday night. went to the football game...we lost. who cares?. had super fun with andrea and claire and of course stacii...got some wendys before the game..then got our seats and it was all screaming from that point on...saw jon and talked to him for a lil....then we were gonna try and see if we could find some ppl that went to western on thur side but we decided not to get beat up and left that mission behind...so then after we went to .....of course where else.....bk lounge. and got some FREE..yes. FREE food. then some ppl walked in and left so we followed them to sleven.....interesting time. so then we just drove round and then all went our separt ways....soooo then saturday woke up and kelsey picked me up for the PACT thing....waste of 4 hours of my life...then i came home ...went tanning then showered....got subway for my grandma and mom and then went to workkkk......then saturday night me and andrea went to denys and ate fooood and chatted for a while. it was nice.

so then today i went to church with miss stacii then we got our much needed pancakes from hercules! then kmart and home depot?..what. yay hard hats! hahaha....then did some other stufff....then visisted andrea at work and then went off to work my self.

work was amazingly BORING but fun?.,..cuz i love throwing ketchup packets into the trash can and telling ppl that we ran out of cheese..ppl are sooooo stupid sometimes. haha ..serisouly..u CANT run out of cheese at a place that makes cheese burgers!....so then i got home like a half hour ago and now im here.

 sooo school's OK. not the best. i think i could do better but yeah. i dont care.

meh. kel